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graphic disease description

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Beyond the FrontierGrandsonInitiationPossessor

Walking Through Nightmares

A Kniggendorf

2092-07-02 — 2094-07-09

In memoriam of Prof. Menger's work with severely asthmatic children in the Seehospiz Norderney during the '70s of the twentieth century. He showed us a door into the world and opened it for us...

I will never forget.

Chapter 1: Nightfall

Chapter 2: Darkness

Chapter 3: Moonrise

Chapter 4: Midnight Thunder

Chapter 5: Starlight

Chapter 6: Dawn

Chapter 7: Sunrise

Author's note:

In this story I used a lot of my personal experiences, and I think I have to break with my habit of not commenting on my stories in this case to clearly divide reality and fiction.

I would like to stress that the course of illness in this tale is not fictitious. It corresponds in detail to severe bronchial asthma that can't be treated with medication. None of the physical and psychological reactions that Gooseman has are invented (except for the glowing phlegm fragments).

The sometimes almost psychotic behavior -- including fear of physical contacts, claustrophobia, breathing air rivalry, panicked flight from places where major attacks happened, aggressive rejections, self-inflicted wounds, but also keeping doggedly at questions / jobs / anything that can keep the mind occupied -- isn't a rarity in this course of illness.

A. Kniggendorf, 18.02.1999


Big thanks to Elizabeth 'fatima' Bales for her help with English and keeping the descriptions of the disease effects understandable for people who haven't experienced them; to Christian 'CGfWiG' Grothoff for finding a better explanation of how Genomtoxin works than I did; and to all those whose reactions convinced me to publish this story though it was written with a completely egoistic motivation. All remaining errors in it are completely my fault.


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